Tired

I work every day, it is very rough. There were a lot of days when I was doing morning and night shifts, coming home at 1 or 2 in the morning hours, my mind floating in creative ideas. There is little time left because of work to pressure creative work.

My feets really hurt...

But this effect of being really tired will help me access faster my unconsciousness, and night painting before sleep will more appear in front of me like I was not person drawing it, like I was not. This process of exploration of unconsciousness create a lot of questions and emerge old memorys, it help so powerfuly in creation new unique ideas in all another part of my creative work.

Is very helpful way of expliration and art.

Yesterday I understood that I connect colors with life situations. A certain color will be connected with a certain memory or object from memory. Creating this color will bring me into my past instantly. I will be pulled into a cyclone of old memories, which will bring situations that are deep down in.

This process of letting your unconsciousness speak will certainly wake up your questioning rational voice, which needs to find logic and order in everything, so it will question your doing and maybe sometime will win and make you not fully sure  'Is what I'm doing something worth?' or 'Am I crazy?'  and multiple other questions which will doubt you. It is very important you don't fight with these questions; acknowledge them, but continue in the doing process you are doing. Answer is: I feel good doing it, so it is not important if it is good or not it's enough I feel good doing it.

Our mind is the deepest place I've ever seen, and sometimes I shake before opening its doors. The ocean floor is much brighter sometimes, and the Sahara Desert is much colder.