I PUT MY HEART AND SOUL INTO MY WORK
What can we say? Not too much when we understand this blog is written 11/14/2024. Sometimes, we can fall into the trap of not believing in ourselves and thinking the world is not made in a way that will give us what we want, even though we've worked for it and done everything we can to achieve it. Sometimes, we are too hard on ourselves and think we can do more. This approach can sometimes push us to achieve more, but sometimes, it will melt your soul and turn it into the dust of disbelief in the process and in yourself.
And sometimes weird things can happen too when you are in a moment of starting to disbelieve or discourage yourself. Then something so absurd happens, which gives you belief back, and if you tell someone what brought your belief back, their answer will be, 'It's just a coincidence.'
Happened
I was working and found myself constantly thinking about starting my business, my ideas, and my self-rising process—becoming me, like you know me now.
Then, talking with a customer who used to come there regularly, he said:
"Don't worry, what you need to get, you will get.
No one can steal it from you; it's written in some place."
I personally don't believe in "the future is written," but I didn’t need it, and the lightning strike of these words, which had no part in our conversation, struck me and gave me belief back. And of course, you will say, "Coincidence, you skeptic.
You are now seeing the person I’ve become and wondering if it's possible I don't believe in myself. Maybe, at the time you're reading this, it’s not possible for me to do it. Maybe I’ve just completely become the monster that pulsed in my chest since I was a kid. This brings us to why we have Vincent van Gogh's photo on this post. It’s not because I'm so obsessed with his art but because of his "quote"
Conor McGregor was the one who brought this Van Gogh quote to my mind from his video on YouTube, where he is discussing how he lost his mind in the process but is happy because his grand-grandchildren and family now have everything they ever need.
I put my heart and soul into my work, and have lost my mind in the process.
